After contemplating for awhile, I finally decided to skip gym, the most dreaded subject for me, even if I do enjoy working out. I've been wanting to work on my blog for awhile, after putting it of for so long now, only to find that I totally uploaded the wrong coding in my locker. Having limited access to the school's internet, I'm not able to grab the code from another saved source. That ruined my skipping :/ Now the only good thing about skipping .. well I don't have to do gym, and most important I wasted another 20minutes of my time talking to my boyfriend. I wouldn't call it wasting if it wasn't on my cellphone .. but my bills would give my parents another frenzy of heart attacks. Although, most of my time was spent on trying to find a temporary replacement for my blog layout, and after a grueling 40minutes of searching I still cannot find a suitable one. . So I decided to just go ahead and pour out some of the events of yesterday and this morning. Isn't that the point of blogging? Like a public diary.

Yesterday I skipped intense rugby training just because my mom disapproved of me joining. That was a waste, for she slept the whole day & I could have sneaked without her knowing. So most of my time was spend watching television and falling asleep, although I was able to finish all my projects which is a big plus for me. My late-nights are always occupied by none other than my boyfriend. That's always my highlight of the whole day. It was a pretty important thing too .. just because I was finally able to pour out my emotions to him. What I mean by that is that I haven't been so good lately .. always feeling unhappy with myself. I hold off on telling him just because I've always kept that inside me. So even with eyes full of tears and an aching chest, I was still able to say how I feel. Maybe I was waiting for the right person to tell it too .. because after that I feel a whole lot better. Our relationship has actually always been complicated. But not a complication between us, but a complication from outside forces. After going through so much, I finally have him by me again. That made my night better as well, causing my morning to be less dreadful. Although I've been going to school later lately, I still find myself tired from last night, no matter how early I sleep. Instead of catching the usual 8:02 bus, I take the 8:26 bus. My sister and I have traded spots, since I've always been the punctual one, and now she's always leaving before me :/ But today I'm glad to have taken the later bus : D Edwin's spanish music made my day even brighter, even if I don't understand any of it, the beats just got to me . HAHAHA . Plus on top of that we were jokign around like little kids in the bus : ) That was a good highlight for this morning. I'm even more happy that no matter what subject I have first thing in the morning, ( either Design Studies or Religion ) I feel relaxed. Therapy classes, that's what I call them : ) Although in Religion class, having my "use to be" friend in there make me remember too much of how good we were together for the 4 years that we have been friends. Seeing her with another and how our relationship changed is hard for me to see. Sometimes I feel looking at her that even if we try to fix what we use to have before, it'll just never be teh same anymore. So much chnages happened between us .. the only good thing that I'm just thankful for is that we didn't end up killing each other through this one big fight. I'm more thankful to God that I had 4 years of friendship with her, no matter how much I sitll miss her as my friend.

The learning commons really isn't the best place to write a blog, but I feel so familiar being with fellow students. Its totally a different feeling from my quiet chilly room. Lunch time is almost approaching, and here I go again .. going to try to squish through the crowd of older students who probably will never notice a 5-foot-4 girl walking their way. Ah well, hopefully the rest of the day turns out okay.

Labels: familiarize, friendship, morning, pour outs

` Hello stranger :] I'm an islander and considered an alien = . = ' Thank you for dropping in , and I must say this blog right here lives now for my venting purposes. Feel free to read if you must , just don't be so harsh on your thoughts about me. – C