Good morning : ) I finally finished the "print-out" version of my Eco Home. I'm pretty proud of it, considering that I have no skills in Adobe Illustrator or haven't been in a class of Com. Tech. I'm glad that even if we have a spare from design studies (because the computers are down) I was still able to finish what I wanted to finish. Even if I'm hungry as hell for missing breakfast. I probably won't survive run day today in gym class .. that's the only thing I regret about all this, I'm really hungry. I have less that 5minutes to grab something before gym class, but I'd rather blog : ) I'll just die doing that run. I guess I deserve that after yesterday = P


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I wrote all that before the school bell interrupted me : / so if you're reading this .. then you know I survived that run day. My ipod actually helped a little, and I'm glad that you're allowed to carry electornics while doing that. I must have gained a lot of weight because I don't feel as energetic as I use too T - T gardam. I actually stumbled through that run. I'll do better once I get the hang of it again. After all that run, I probably gained back the calories I've eatem because of the beef teriyaki and chocolate milk I pigged out on. School went .. okay. I still dread it. Since starting high school my self-esteem has gone down so low. I get depressed sometimes with the events that happen in school.. its unexplainabLe to me. I'm trying to cope with it .. GAH . Its probably because I'm never happy with the way I look. People are right when they say that "highschool will be the death of you" .. it will be. Too much pressure .. & I promise myself never to let it get tome but here I am .. letting it get to me. ot only that I get other pressures from outside school . My life is crazy. To most whatever you do will never be good enough. I give up on myself so quickly. Other than that I'm still alive from he dramas of highschool = - = '

Today was actually a pretty great day. Meaghan and I chilled after school. So 2hours of our time was mostly spent on eating and the rest of the time was for of course shopping! I found a really great belt bag .. which is an imitation but SHHH of a really good brand .. but I'm cheap = ) I'm not going to pay for the real thing. BEsides no one will know until they look at the bag closely or if you tell them : ) that's what I call "smart buy" . I also bought these little cute voodoo doll phone chains. HAHAHA . Yeah .. I'm a queerr .. once I saw them .. weLL I have to have them : ) After all that, we made our trip back to our homes ..

I still miss yesterday though >.< I spent all my time with LB. Well my afternoon after school anyways. Its very rare for him to sneak to come see me so of course I cherish every moment I get to spend with him. He would never know how much it means to me for him to sacrifice all his time for me. I've never had someone do this to me before .. and I'm more glad than ever to have him. I thank God for him .. . I know I'm being "naive" again. That most people would probably say that at this age .. love can't exist. But the thing is its true . . we don't know better. That's why we fall ourselves. Right now this type of thing .. well its like an experience. We learn .. and if we succeed then its good .. if we fall then we learn from it. What I feel for him .. . I love him a lot. SO for me if it doesn't work out then I learn from it. But at this rate I'm still working hard for us. Maybe someday I`ll crack form the pressure of being with him.

Other highlights of today ? ... nothing else. LAWL. except my mom forgot to put sugar in the pandesal .. causing it to be bland. HAHAHA .

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