Sometimes I feel like you don't really change, no matter how bad you feel. I hate how I can't understand you, & you can't seem to understand many parts of me. I guess, I`m the one that promised you that I would get use to it .. but how much more can I take ? I always feel like I will collapse someday . . or blow-up on you . I don't want to think of it, but really I'm slowly falling apart. I know its such a small matter , & I shouldn't be making such a big deal about it .. but I feel like I have to do everything sometimes just to get your attention. It isn't simple you know . I just wish that maybe for a change you're the one that will give all your attention to me. I know it seems so much to ask .. but I barely see you, & once in awhile .. even once I want you to look at me. Maybe I`ll be happy then. I thought I'd be ok being with you , but I really hate feeling like this. I'm so needy of you, I really am . Avoiding you .. just doesn't work , & you don't even know how much I've tried .. tried to get use to how you are. Sorry .. if someday I . . .

Labels: change, confuse, imissyou

` Hello stranger :] I'm an islander and considered an alien = . = ' Thank you for dropping in , and I must say this blog right here lives now for my venting purposes. Feel free to read if you must , just don't be so harsh on your thoughts about me. – C